My life is a trainwreck and it’s become too fascinating to not share it.

You know all those people who say, “speak from your scars, not from your wounds”?

To them I say, fuck that.

I’m bleeding out and I’m ready to make a spectacle for all to see.

You know what keeps people hooked on a story? Never knowing where it’s going to go.

Will she make it out alive or will the blood gush out so quickly it spews out her eyeballs!!

Okay, sorry for the graphics but you get what I mean.

I’m honestly over happy endings. Mostly because I’m bitter that I’m waiting on my own.

It makes you feel like your story is meaningless and your life isn’t worth sharing until you have it figured out.

So here most of us are waiting for life to show us that all the struggle we are going through means something.

Until then, we keep quiet and watch everyone tell their happy lessons and struggles that got wrapped up in a cute little bow.

Fuck that.

Give me the trainwreck.

Give me the nitty gritty of how everything is going wrong and you don’t know what to do.

That’s a story I’ll keep coming back for.

I’m finally at a point in my life where I don’t care if people think my life is a trainwreck.

All the horrible things anyone could say about my life I’ve probably thought ten times over.

I’ve got parts that have been meaner to me than most people could ever be. It’s something I’m working on, but it’s also the truth.

I’m done being the role model who has it all figured out and leads the way with happy endings and lessons wrapped in bows.

I’ll lead the way while standing right next to you on ground zero.

My lessons are a little bit dirtier and the happy endings might look more like moments where I chose joy even when I didn’t have any reason to.

We can struggle and find meaning together.

Or, if you’re reading this and deciding you’re better than me, you can follow along and see how soon I crash and burn, how much I embarrass myself, or if spewing too much blood from my wounds ruins my life forever.

I don’t really care.

I’m putting this trainwreck up for all to see. If you’re willing to read, then I’m willing to sit down and tell you my real, authentic story.

Think of this as the best book you’ve ever paid for because I’m ready to deliver the stories of my life as they play out in real time.

When will the trainwreck end? Who knows, but I guess we will find out together.

Xoxo,

Ashley

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